DO I GIVE A SHIT

I keep doing all this stuff. I keep trying my hand at mellowing out the creative part of my mind and body. A challenge, indeed! I think the best way to do it is to have zero expectations and keep climbing this fucking giant mountain.

AAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes I just have to ignore those feelings.

Tasks? A list?

I'm going to make another short film.

I'm going to make a feature film.

I'm going to make some more albums.

I think creative instrumental music was a poor choice for this man. Again with the god damn fucking despair. Blades jumping falling fallen sickening the mind worsens

I have to do everything myself in this life.

Bleakness....Blackness