HERE WE GO

OK, so now it's time for me to really pay the price of pursuing art music. I have been desperately trying to find a job. Even when I do, I won't be able to pay for the apartment I'm in and so will have to sell my piano and move out...Possibly of the neighborhood. My marriage is coming to an end, and I now find myself with absolutely no resources. The debt I have accumulated (largely as a result of investing into my music career) is now going to fuck me in the ass. There is absolutely no way I can afford all of this to come crashing down on me at once. I have zero prospects and the only job I will be able to land probably won't pay more than $10 per hour.

No, I am in big big trouble here. I am trying very hard not to kick myself for pursuing music, for getting married, or for buying a goddam piano. I don't know what i was thinking.

This is going to be a long road. I am not looking forward to the rest of my life. Maybe it is really time to consider checking out...